Bleeding Edge

′′ The important thing in life is to be able to see the world through the eyes of a child ′′

–Albert Einstein

And it is equally important to live a life full of vision, meaning, purpose, opportunity and humility that would allow you to unfold your destiny…

And so I have embarked on this life as a true amateur in each and every instance wanting to learn what it’s all about before I exit this mortal coil.

My cardinal advise is to always spread Love to those around you if you want to have some love in your life.

So, after loving my parents, my siblings, my lovers, my spouses, my children and all of my friends, and especially those misguided ones who think they are my enemies — I have now started to love myself and Love God too as I must…

Yet my God is Great like when he says these things:

Stop praying and punching yourself in the chest, because what I want you to do is go out into the world and enjoy your life.

I want you to enjoy, sing, have fun and enjoy everything I’ve made for you.

Stop going to those dark, cold temples that you built yourself and say they are my house, because they are not.

You know that my house is in the mountains, in the woods, in the rivers, in the lakes, in the beaches and everywhere in between, as well as in the garbage can and in the dismal places of this earth…

That’s where I live and there I express my love for you.

Stop blaming me for your miserable life; I never told you there was anything wrong with you or that you were a sinner, or that your sexuality was a bad thing.

Lovemaking is a gift I have given you and with which you can express your love, your ecstasy, your joy. So don’t blame me for everything they made you believe.

Stop reading alleged sacred scriptures that have nothing to do with me. If you can’t read me in a sunrise, in a landscape, in the look of your friends, in your son’s eyes… you will find me in no book!

Trust me and stop asking me.

Would you tell me how to do my job?

Stop being so scared of me because I do not judge you or criticize you, nor get angry, or seek to punish you. I am pure love.Stop asking for forgiveness, there’s nothing to forgive. If I made you… I filled you with passions, limitations, pleasures, feelings, needs, inconsistencies… free will.

How can I blame you if you respond to something I put in you? How can I punish you for being the way you are, if I’m the one who made you? Do you think I could create a place to burn all my children who behave badly for the rest of eternity?

What kind of God would do that?

Forget any kind of commandments, any kind of laws; those are wiles to manipulate you, to control you, that only create guilt in you. Respect your peers and don’t do what you don’t want for yourself.

All I ask is that you pay attention in your life, that your consciousness is your guide.

My beloved, this life is not a test, not a step, not a rehearsal, nor a prelude to paradise. This life is the only thing that exists here and now, and it is all you need.I have set you absolutely free, no prizes or punishments, no sins or virtues… no one carries a marker, no one keeps a record.

You are absolutely free to create in your life heaven or hell.

I could tell you if there’s anything after this life — yet I won’t. But I can give you a tip… Live as if there is nothing after this … as if this is your only chance to enjoy, to love, to exist.

So, if there’s nothing, then you will have enjoyed the opportunity I gave you.

And if there is an afterlife, rest assured that I won’t ask if you behaved right or wrong.

Instead, I will ask you this:

Did you do good for yourself and for others?

How did You like it?

Did you have fun?

What did you enjoy the most?

And lastly:

What did you learn from this journey?

Stop believing in me, because believing is assuming, guessing, imagining.

I don’t want you to believe in me…

I want you to feel me in you when you kiss your beloved, when you tuck in your little girl, when you caress your dog, when you bathe in the sea or jump in the lake and the rivers of creation.

Stop praising me — what kind of egomaniac God do you think I am?

I’m bored being praised, I’m tired of being thanked.

Feeling grateful? Prove it by taking care of yourself, your health, your relationships, the world.

Express your joy!… that’s the way to praise me.

Stop complicating things and repeating as a parakeet what you’ve been taught about me.The only thing for sure is that you are here, that you are alive, and that this world is full of wonders. What do you need more miracles for? Why so many explanations?

Look for me outside… you won’t find me. Find me inside… because I am there beating within you, right in the center of your heart…

As for my human side — I’ve changed because I have realized that I am not “Atlas” and that the world does not rest on my shoulders. Nor am I going to save anyone except perhaps the people suffering from XDR-TB that my organization People’s Health International helps heal along the way on their journey to a life in a new home, in a new country or even in a new continent.

As a matter of fact — I have stopped bargaining about Love sharing with anyone, because a few ounces of Love more or less is not going to break me, but it might help equalize the missing balance in my partner’s life. Same with when I go eat out -with a friend – I always pick up the bill, even if I don’t have any money, and I make sure to leave my waitress a big tip, because the extra money might bring a smile to her face. After all she is toiling much harder for a living than I am — or so I reckon to be of assistance…

By now, and at this stage of my Life — I have stopped telling the elderly that they’ve already told me that same old war story many times over — because story-telling makes them walk down memory lane & allows them to relive their past.

And that is a joyful adventure for all of us.

Still as of now — I have learned not to correct people even when I know they are wrong. The onus of making everyone perfect is not on me.

Peace is more precious than perfection..

I give compliments freely & generously.

Compliments are a mood enhancer not only for the recipient, but also for me. And a small tip for the recipient of a compliment, never, NEVER turn it down, just say “Thank You.”

I give hugs freely and kisses to boot and even though we are at a time of scarcity of Love — people react lovingly when they feel the brain effects of a hug that lasts thirty seconds or more, because that how long it takes for the dopamines to start pumping into our brains and to fill us with happiness.

I have learned not to bother too much about my appearance, nor about a crease or a spot on my shirt.

Personality speaks louder than appearances.

I walk away from people who don’t value me.

They might not know my worth — but I do.

I remain cool when someone plays dirty to outrun me in the rat race, because I am not a rat & neither am I involved in any race.

I am learning not to be embarrassed by my emotions, because it is my emotions that make me human.

I have learned that it’s better to drop the ego than to break a relationship.

My ego will keep me aloof, whereas with relationships, I will never be alone.

I have learned to live each day as if it’s the last.

After all, it just might be the last.

Yours,

Dr Churchill

PS:

Finally I’ve learned to Love myself and that is why I do now only those things that make me happy.

I feel that I am solely responsible for my happiness, and I owe to myself to pursue this state of being.

Because happiness is a personal choice, and as the old Abe said:

“You can be happy at any time, that you just choose to be.”

— Abraham Lincoln